Resolutions ’09

31 12 2008

Sooooo, its that time of the year again when i make big plans for the year that is about to start. So, for the coming year I have big plans that I intend to make and then forget.

The highlights are:

  • As usual, start the year with a cigarette.
  • Find a new job at higher position and much higher salary (preferably in Q2 of 2009)
  • Appear in PMP exam (Q2 of 2009)
  • Make sure to play your cards right, and NOT to be forced to get married in the coming year.
  • Save more money
  • Buy a Laptop (I swear I need one badly)
  • Learn at least one new technology.
  • Buy a new BMW or Ferrari   (Ok, Ok… even a used low grade car would do, BMWs can wait)
  • Be more organized (I have a feeling that I will be laughing at this statement in a year’s time)
  • Make new friends and remain acquainted with current ones.
  • Stay away from trouble!   (I wish i could)

and…

  • To Keep blogging!

Wish you all a fantastic new year

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Resolutions ’09

31 12 2008

Sooooo, its that time of the year again when i make big plans for the year that is about to start. So, for the coming year I have big plans that I intend to make and then forget.

The highlights are:

  • As usual, start the year with a cigarette.
  • Find a new job at higher position and much higher salary (preferably in Q2 of 2009)
  • Appear in PMP exam (Q2 of 2009)
  • Make sure to play your cards right, and NOT to be forced to get married in the coming year.
  • Save more money
  • Buy a Laptop (I swear I need one badly)
  • Learn at least one new technology.
  • Buy a new BMW or Ferrari   (Ok, Ok… even a used low grade car would do, BMWs can wait)
  • Be more organized (I have a feeling that I will be laughing at this statement in a year’s time)
  • Make new friends and remain acquainted with current ones.
  • Stay away from trouble!   (I wish i could)

and…

  • To Keep blogging!

Wish you all a fantastic new year





A review of Last Year’s Resolutions

28 12 2008

In the final days of last year (2007), I made a list of ambitious milestones that I had planned to achieve in the current year (2008). As the year has nearly come to an end, I find it safe to close the list of activities and look back at what I managed to achieve and what i didn’t.

So, here is the list, the status of activity and my comments are right below the activity.

  • Start the year with ‘What I have done’ by ‘Linkin Park’.

That was easy, Done

  • As the clock strikes 12, light a ciggy!

Done that too!

  • By the end of 2008, I would like to see myself in the final semester of my MBA.

Yup, If I get through this semester… This would be my last semester

  • Perhaps, I might try to switch a job in the latter half of the year. (I said perhaps, so don’t get bright ideas out of it!)

Managed to stick to this job till the time of this writing

  • Complete atleast one more professional course. This includes trying to learn any new technologies.

Sharepoint, Biztalk… you name it!

  • Learn to drive.

Yup, got that thing under my belt too.

  • Get more certifications. Atleast two of them.

No, 😦         No improvement in this sector.

  • Be a more reasonable, responsible human being and a better member of the family.

hahahah….. Are  you Kidding ? Was I on a high when I wrote this ?   Me, and a Responsible human being?… LOL This is the Best Joke…EVER

  • Be more organized.

OMG, I cannot believe that I wrote this….

  • Take control of this bitch of a life.

Bitches- they can’t be controlled. They remain a bitch and I am no nigger to grab this bitch.

  • Stay connected with old pals and to make new ones.

Yeah, seems like I managed to do this. to some extent

  • Keep regretting on what I already have lost. 

Hell YEAH!!!   I cannot be more regretful than now.

  • Buy a laptop.

Yeah, Dream big! that’s what they say.  I bought one, In my dreams

  • Re-join the broken schedule of Gym.

I joined a Gym, for sure…. The gym that is right here…. on my couch.





On Childhood Dreams….

25 12 2008

In every journey, the traveler must ask:
was the right path taken?
Many roads are long and winding, filled with those who have lost their way.
Some forge their own course, guided by faith, seeking not a location, but a kindred soul.
Others step together, finding safety in the arms of another.
A few remove themselves from the trail to avoid the path of temptation.
But those who watch the track too closely fail to see where it led them, and are often all too surprised by their destination.

Months back, I got the honor to watch the online version of Randy Pausch’s The Last Lecture. The lecture was about the journey of a great man who was proud that he had made it possible to achieve his childhood dreams.

"Well he is a professor, an intellectual personality who can dream and make them a reality", I said to myself.
"No, thats a lame excuse, a silly excuse to escape your own reality", my conscience jumped in and brought me to a pondering state.
"What were my dreams ? What steps did I take to achieve them? Did I really achieve them? or Did I backed off and run like I always do?", My conscience bombarded me with tough questions and I HAD to answer them.

Yes, I admit (rather confess) that I as a child had my own ambitions, Though I never claimed that they ever existed (not even to my mom). People (relatives, teachers and sometime even strangers) who used to take me as a nerdy looking mummy-daddy type of kid used to ask me "kyun chotay mian, baday ho kar kia bano ge?" and I would just keep quiet and migh occasionally smile at them.

As a little kid, the biggest ambition that i think I ever had was to be superior than my class mates, and that NEVER to fail in any exam that the school conducted. (A typical child’s dream when failing in exam was considered a matter of ultimate disgrace)
Achieving that dream  would require me to study more and study hard… I did my part and eventually i was through school as one of the better students (if not the uber-elite). — Objective Achieved.

Another one of my childhood dream was to be an astronaut and explore galaxies in my space ship. That was a real dream whose reality i am still unable to sort out. First of all, we dont’ have necessary educational or practical infrastructure to ever prepare any astronaut. So, that remained a dream till the time of this writing.

And yeah, I also wanted to be a fighter pilot (I will discuss this dream in a bit).

Soon, school was gone. College began. Dreams evolved and so did I. Due to my interested towards Mathematics, I started to dream about getting into some engineering university. Unfortunately, that was just a dream and remained a dream. My lazy self started to kick in and i didn’t study when it was needed the most. Soon I was through with college but the future seemed bleak the dream was broken.

Then perhaps the biggest dream of my life… my career. was to join the Armed Forces. Being a typical lazy couch potato would take me nowhere but to the couch. I tried for that dream (another reason for trying hard was that i knew i was never gonna make it to an engineering university), That was perhaps the only part of my life when i pushed myself beyond the limits of my body (of course, I am exaggerating). I took the first chance, Failed in the final tests.    A year later I appeared again, Failed again……..

That night, I cried. Everyone does when your biggest dream comes crumbling down into your feet. That was a dead end for me. No engineering, No Armed forces….. You are one big fucking loser, Burhan.

That was perhaps the time when i decided to grow up and do something than to dream. So, I started to take life as it came to me. The age of the dreaming had ended.

So, that was a little account of my childhood dreams. From the looks of it, its a very sorry tale. Now coming to the causes that made me fail…..

1 – Lack of vision
I lacked a vision from the very first day. What do you expect from a five year old when he is asked about his life’s ambition?
At least a statement of objective – no matter how stupid it sounds. My case was quite the contrary. I didn’t even bother to give an answer because I probably never had an ambition. I liked to take things as they were offered and this habit is still present in me.

Secondly, a lot of above mentioned dreams were perhaps more of "influenced dreams" than genuine ones. For example, Being an engineer, or a soldier or a fighter pilot were rather implanted into my head by my folks than by myself.

2 – No seriousness

Once I accepted that i need to go to a Engineering college or to the Military academy, I showed no proper interest in chasing after that dream. Dreams only become true for those who chase them. And i rather liked things to fall in my lap while I slept.

3 – Other Constraints

I could have gotten into an engineering college or to a aviation school on self-financed basis, but that requires finances which i or my parents never had. So, another barrier in achieving my goals.

Conclusion:

Most of my dreams were just dreams. The reality is quite different than what I once dreamt. And if I have to blame someone for the current reality, there is only one person and its ME.

If you need to achieve your dreams, plan properly.

 

Dream On!

 

 

P.S: I still dream, though their nature has changed. I now dream about getting filthy rich, hot babes and mega orgies :)…. Don’t worry, I don’t take these filthy dreams seriously, neither should you.





R.I.P Gakkahar Plaza

21 12 2008

As I woke up today to prepare for office, I turned on the TV as usual to hear depressing news. I was not disappointed as the news TV channels were telecasting the live coverage of the fire that had engulfed a building in Rawalpindi for which I keep sweet childhood memories. The Legendary Gakkhar Plaza (call it Dolmen Center/Zainab Market of Rawalpindi) was in peril. TV was reporting that fire was very severe and due to clothing stores in the building, it was hard to contain the fire and full destruction was imminent. ah…. I sighed and continued to prepare for office.

Later in the afternoon I came back and turned on the TV (again the usual stuff), the news about Gakkhar plaza was even more shocking. A major portion of building had collapsed due to damaged structure and several people had been buried in the rubble. Well, thats the end of it, I thought. The plaza had gone down and only thing that now remained about it was the memories that people kept about it.

Well, I am one such guy, Long ago I used to live near Rawalpindi. Even when I was in school, I had heard of a mecca of clothing stores in Rawalpindi – they called it Gakkhar Plaza. When i got independent enough that my parents allowed me to go to Rawalpindi (which was 40 kilometers away from my home), i made it my habit to visit the landmark building whenever i visited the city (whether alone or with my friends). I bought lots of clothing of my late teen years from the very plaza (and got ripped off more than any other place). The visions of shops filled with jeans, shirts, shorts   and the soothing aroma of leather goods still serve as a recollection of the past years.

Ah, Its sad that i will not be able to see that building again. May Allah give peace to the ones who lost their everything in that fire. Amen….. And gakkhar plaza, You will still stand tall in my memories.





Shoes are Traced out – ISI and LeT Involved

18 12 2008

I found this interesting post here. I love the irony of it. I am copying and pasting the text below:

SHOES ARE TRACED OUT
The pair of shoes which was thrown at Mr. Bush in Iraq has links to Pakistan, said a statement from Pentagon. They have the following proofs:
i) The journalist had visited Pakistan earlier this year. There he was inspired by the shoe throwing at former CM Arbab Ghulam Rahim and Sher Afghan Niazi.
ii) He received his training of throwing shoes by a Pakistan based Jihadi organization LeT.
iii) The DNA sample of leather has revealed that the animal whose skin was used for manufacturing the shoe had traces of grass which is grown in North of Pakistan and this skin was collected by a Jihadi organization on Eid-ul-Adha this month.
Hearing this, President Asif Ali Zardari and Prime Minister Yousaf Raza Gilani have decided to ban the Jihadi organization and launched a country wide crackdown against all the cobblers in Pakistan.

 





Quick trip to Airport

15 12 2008

Early this morning, my brother flew to Dubai for a month long visit. His flight was scheduled to fly at 5:40 but had to check in around 3:00, so i booked a radio cab for 2:30.

Since i was tired as hell the night before, i retired to bed at midnight and woke up at 2:00. The taxi arrived at 2:15 and I woke up my younger sibling to get ready.

At 2:35 our journey started and thanks to empty roads and racecar driving by the driver we were at the terminal in 15 minutes! (wow!!!).

I dropped him off into the lounge and stayed there till he was done with screening. then i hired another cab and got back home. When i sat down on my bed, the clock had struck 3:50. So, within an hour and thirty minutes, i was to the airport and back home!

The life at the airport was very contrasting as compared to the city, while the city slept the airport was wide awake… with people traveling to international destinations and their friends and family members coming to drop them off, it was an interesting place to visit (even at the dead hour)

So, i continued with my sleep after coming home and woke up at 7:30 to resume my day which turned out to be a relatively busier day than usual 😦